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Sunday, March 14, 2004 01:03 a.m.

OK.. shifted blog already.. i am now most likely permanently stationed at WWW.ANGELSBROUGHTMEHERE.BLOGSPOT.COM ... remember to change ur links k!!

Saturday, March 13, 2004 09:20 p.m.

i think i should be shifting place pretty soon.. place as in blog place.. hmmm.. i should be shifting if i actually can be bothered to.. i wanna start archiving my posts and everything but i have absolutely no freaking inkling on how pitas does their archiving..

oh well.. all said.. i think i shall start signing up for an account with blogspot now..

Friday, March 12, 2004 04:27 p.m.

this song is pretty nice.. hearing from the flow of the song, one cannot tell how totally explicit this song is.. haha..

Saturday, March 6, 2004 04:00 p.m.

yay! i can finally type properly again.. my previous keyboard spoiled then very irritating to type!! everytime type must reedit.. then chat very slow.. then after a few weeks some of the buttons completely cannot press lor.. like O and L den everytime chat want to type those letters must copy and paste from somewhere.. haha.. follow mary when her exclamation mark button was spoiled..

i just helped yingqi do her template.. helped her put songs and changed template.. i also helped her register for a chatterboX!!.. even since i saw wyn getting a chatterbox i also wanted to get one lah.. buden.. i lazy to go to the trouble of registering.. maybe next time when i happy then i will register for it.. oh go check out yingqi's blog!! nicer lah.. buden i dun really like the template that she chose.. haha.. abit not my type.. i think i now pro at doing templates.. i did hers in just 25 mins lor.. haha.. fast right!!

oh.. this morning i went to bishan park with baba and huifen.. they taught me how to cycle.. but sadly i havent master yet!! i only can paddle 1 round then i will tend to tilt to one side.. huifen always say that before i even paddle i already have the mentality that i am going to fall.. so my leg is always ready to break my fall and thats why i cannot put both legs on the paddle..

wat she said is quite true lah.. i dun DARE to cycle!! very scary lor.. i mean i dun really care about falling down lah.. i not scared of the pain.. the thing i scared of is HOW i fall down.. i think i very paranoid de.. i keep on thinking wat if i cycle then i fall then the handle of the bike poke into my eyes.. scary right!! thats why i dun dare.. haha..

tonight baba might be coming to my place.. she gonna lend me her bike so that i can practice cycling by myself.. but like a bit embarrassing lei.. means i must practice myself around the estate then people see me already so big dunno how to cycle.. haha..

oh.. just now i went to the computer shop near my house lah.. then the uncle there is my mom's customer.. haha.. then the uncle gave me a $2 discount for my keyboard.. so nice of him.. hehe.. then he told me that i have a very nice mom.. then he ask me i happy to have a nice mom anot.. haha.. then i told him that my mom going to buy me a new computer..

so i asked him wat computer is good lah.. i said i like Hewlett Packard.. but he said the best computer is ur own customized computer lor.. he said buy a branded computer no use because it is made for general use.. then he said customize is better and cheaper and specific to my needs. haha.. then i saw a HP computer at his shop la.. the owner of the HP comp told the uncle to take out all the hp parts and install LG parts.. haha.. the owner said the HP parts not very good.. so saddening!! cos his HP computer is the same model as mine!! then i like this HP computer.. means i not an expert at computer qualities.. haha..

then uncle told me to customize my own computer lah.. then i told him if he have nice CPU cover then i will customize.. if its all those white white CPU cover then i dun want.. haha.. not stylo.. but if can i think customize is good lah.. saves my mom lotsa money yeah..

oh.. going to brian mok's place later.. meeting the rest at 630pm.. there'll be lotsa people there.. daryl.. those 2 idiots.. jane and esther.. haha.. but dun think will stay there too late.. tml got competition at 730am.. all the best to us.. God bless us OdacianS!! *muacks*

Sunday, February 22, 2004 10:08 p.m.

wah!! finally finished the legs and paddles and vertical marathon competition.. i think everyone generally feel good since everyone put in their best.. vertical marathon we dunno our placings ar.. but for legs and paddles we got 13th and 14th placings.. not bad..

i quite disappointed yet again with my performance eh.. but i happy that i managed to go through tat gruelling 20 mins of kayaking.. its really damn tiring to kayak with speed lor.. no wonder the canoeist have to train their arms so hard.. its really tough.. kayaking for leisure and for competition different ar..

speaking about the canoeist i saw the whole bunch of em while kayaking our route.. haha.. even said hi to that botak friend of gui jie... i panting already.. heh hee here and there but still must look cool.. haha.. saw jeanne again.. but salt water went into my eyes the moment i saw her.. then after i ok le she already past by me.. haha..

oh.. we saw maryjane oso.. maryanne's sister.. then yingqi called out to her and said hi.. then yingqi was like maryanne's friends.. haha.. i embarrassed ar!! but maryjane is very pretty and petite..

oh.. we saw senior yinting also la.. yingqi didn't noe her name.. then she called out "OAC~!" wah.. i embarrassed and hide my face.. lucky she didn't hear.. den later on we just went up to her.. yingqi is full of embarrassment.. haha..

now we'll train hard for surf and sweat.. surf and sweat.. here we come!!! oh.. i saw my primary school pe teacher at vertical marathon.. she now ntu sports club teacher in charge.. i saw her at last year vertical marathon oso.. and she recognised me last yr.. but forgot my name.. this year she remembered my name.. but she pronounces it as rina instead of nina.. haha..

then she very lame.. tok cock one lor she.. den kept on slapping my back.. haha.. then psycho me join NTU.. haha.. oh.. and she looks like an old bung.. *laughs* and NTU also organiser of surf and sweat.. then she also taking part.. but it'll be a closed event.. not opens.. anyone interested to join!! it'll be fun lei!! at sentosa sunset bay!! i gg to collect all the different competition shirts.. haha..

Saturday, February 21, 2004 09:41PM

wah.. tomorrow is the legs and paddles competition.. i am so excited now!! haha.. i am, now at andy's place.. going home soon.. making use of this opportunity to update my blog..

oh.. not really expecting much from the competition tomorrow.. will just do my besT!! NJC canoeing team will be there too.. heard from gui jie that their team is bloody strong.. and that they even beat the army police and civil defence in the regatta dragonboat race... and he said the guys run much much faster than our canoeist guys.. but its ok.. i'll be positive and go there for the experience.. like our old motto says.. THE EXPERIENCE IS YOURS!!

p/s: anyone watch captain planet? it sounds like THE POWER IS YOURS.. think so..? hehe...

Wednesday, February 18, 2004 11:17 p.m.

u noe.. i went for a conversation yesterday at safra with my bro and his friends and girlfriend together with my mom.. and there was something very interesting that the speaker said..

he asked, "Are you happy?" most of us there like murmured yes.. no.. and den he asked.. "How do you know you are happy?" and someone goes to say "It's just a feeling." and he asked yet again, "How do you know feelings are true?" at first i got a little bit confused.. but then he did explain..

this was wat he said lah.. he said that if we get good grades we'll be happy.. we see our favourite colour we'll be happy.. buden someone comes up to u and say u are a piece of shit, spoils your day and u are no longer happy.. so he said that our type of happiness was based on circumstances.. so if u took away all the circumstances away, the events that happened, will u still be happy? just a food for thought.. it really got me thinking... =)

Wednesday, February 18, 2004 08:27 p.m.

went kayaking today.. saw the other canoeists there.. saw jeanne and 2 other girls from our school's dragon boat team.. me and yingqi declared that jeanne's not that scary afterall.. *big smile* quite friendly afterall.. haha.. oh.. we went to kallang sea sports to train for our legs and paddles competition.. i think the training is very last minute..

the competition is this sunday.. and we are only gonna train today.. no other days to train.. and my performance was pretty disappointing.. i couldn't go straight at first yet again.. and after awhile i could go straight.. and then we practiced thrusting.. but barely thrust for 1 km then my arms stated giving way.. how to last for 3 km?

Saturday, February 14, 2004 08:48 p.m.

Why...do my heart,keep on beating....
Why...do these eyes,of mine cry....
Don't they know..It's the end of the world....
It ended....When you say goodbye.....

today was the cross country!! finally over!! basketball girls had gotten their wish and got the champion trophy.. so proud of them.. so proud of michelle! u go girl!! today also valentine's day..HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!! then after the race got the class photo taking thing for the NE..

at first quite enthu.. then suddenly the class guys started to sian sian.. wah.. then they walked damn slow.. stone here and there.. then me and mengsan irritated.. so we go off by ourselves.. we went to find the other oacians.. when we went to the beach.. no people from our batch lor!! only baba, huifen, chailing, shulian, peishan, aaron and this AJC ODAC guy called chai kiat ar..

at first boring.. then later damn fun lah.. very funny lor.. they kept on coming out with jokes then we just kept laughing and laughing.. aaron was telling us all about army lor.. then it was very funny.. then chai kiat also told us a lot of stories about army.. all very interesting.. he also told us about different units in the army.. like the elites.. then got the crazy infantry.. very interesting.. then he got to be a diver.. diver from the elite unit lah.. earn quite high lei.. $850 per month.. considered good already..

then listen until like very nice likdat lor! like very interesting and exciting.. haha.. then later at around 3 my class came.. cannot abandon them so i very busy keep on going to different tables.. haha.. around 4+ my class wanted to leave to go eat.. so went with them lor.. cos i everytime never go with my class.. but today not alot of girls.. only me, mengsan, huiwen, jasmin, then some of the guys.. then we went to eat lor.. ate at yoshinoya.. haven't eaten the whole day.. actually not hungry lei.. i dun feel hungry.. then.. see yoshi stArt to have hunger pangs..

argh!! my keyboard spoil! very irritating!! i lazy to update already!! should be going to andy's house tonight.. waiting for andy come fetch me.. maybe i won't go.. tiredz.. maybe update at his house later.. waahaha..

Saturday, February 7, 2004 11:08 p.m.

i didnt go school today.. neither did i go for OAC activity.. haiz.. dun ask me why.. i am feeling very guilty now.. i think i really slack lei.. last wednesday i didnt come school also.. but at least i still go for OAC.. but today i slept till 3!! then never go for OAC.. dammit guilty now!!

Wednesday, February 4, 2004 11:36 p.m.

the 7 wonders of the world are:

1) to see
2)to feel
3) to hear
4)to taste
5)to touch
6)to laugh
7)and to love

the most precious things ever in life cannot be built by hand nor bought by man

Wednesday, February 4, 2004 11:10 p.m.

*drools* so handsome!! he is the prince of monaco.. shuai ar!!

Wednesday, February 4, 2004 08:08 p.m.

phew.. *wipes sweat* just came back from the trial run.. my timing is 24.53.. that timing is from bing xiang.. he said he timed us the minute we started running.. but my timing from the teachers was 28.12.. abit doubt bing xiang's timing lei.. to me 25mins a bit too good lei.. haha..

but overall i am quite happy with my performance lah.. cos i think i put in my personal best lor.. yupz.. got one point i overtake this year 1 girl lah.. then i tapped her back and said jiayou.. then i very happy i did that.. i got that same kinda feeling when i was doing the vertical marathon and that pretty cjc odac girl tapped me and encourage me.. hahaha.. i am mad.. hehe..

i think the front part i chiong too much.. then later i started to slow down.. slow down until the middle part yumin overtake me.. then at the end right shaojia and wanlin overtake me!! sad ar!! only 100 more metres likdat and they overtake me.. the real cross country cant let them overtake me!!

just now running halfway i felt water droplets lor.. then i tot it will rain.. i wait wait for the rain never come.. stupid rain cheat my feelings.. hn.. after the run lawrence still made us run 3 rounds of the carpark lei!! idiot lawrence... i already very tired.. then i run around 3/4 round then i started walking.. then the 2nd and a half round i ran to them.. haha.. i cheat.. but i seh already.. then later i saw leon and lingyu very very far.. then i waited for them.. so nice of me.. hehe..

everyone says i very fierce to the year1s.. where got lor! i think i nice to them.. they only hear my tone like shouting at them but my expression smiling lei!! haha.. today yingqi told me she very scared of jeanne.. haha.. said that got one time jeanne stared at her.. well.. that's everyone's sentiments.. hehe.. aiya..i need to shit already..

wah.. my shit very smelly.. cannot tahan.. hehe.. oh u noe u noe.. on the 22nd of february right, we got this competition.. vertical marathon.. i hate that to shit lor.. climb 43 storeys.. yucks.. buden hor.. on the same day right.. got another competition called erm.. legs and paddles if i not mistaken..

one group will be sent for the legs and paddles.. then i am in the legs and paddles!! yay!! no need do vertical marathon.. hehe.. the competition is like passing the baton likdat u noe? first will be kayaking.. kayak for 3Km then one we reach the finishing point the next person will run 5Km.. then after the person run 5Km den another person continue run 3Km.. ya.. its likdat i think..

me yongchuen yingqi and brian mok will be kayaking.. i cannot run lah... haha.. mengsan will be running 5Km.. haha.. she complaining down there lor.. but she is the fastest odac girl... then 3Km is xinyi i think.. yupz.. xinyi say next wednesday the 8 of us that is down for legs and paddles will go and train.. must warm up!! if i dun warm up before kayaking i cannot kayak properly one..

will be kayaking doubles.. i partner with yongchuen.. must test speed and thrust.. haha.. this kinda thing i can make it one lor.. 1 year in odac i can safely say my arm power is ok.. but u ask me run i will go hide behind the bushes man..

p/s: thanks to the basketballers for you all the encouragement!! =) it means a lot to us..

Tuesday, February 3, 2004 07:00 p.m.

haha.. a brand new layout yet again.. hehe.. quite bored waiting for my tutor.. then dun feel like doing any work now.. i like this layout lei.. i like the idea it gives that girls are indecisive.. haha.. its a fact right!! and we always tend to overbuy.. haha..

messaged my tutor long long time ago to remind him of tuition.. havent reply me.. skali he forget again.. bloody tutor..

Tuesday, February 3, 2004 05:39 p.m.

yay.. just came back.. went to study with mengsan and huiwen.. very productive de!! we eat first.. eat taco bell.. nice!! something new lah.. then i did physics and maths.. now i waiting patiently for 7.30pm to come.. got tuition with my dear physics tutor... havent seen him for quite long already.. wonder whether he got grow handsome.. haha..

did vertical training with yingqi lingyu mengsan and yumin after school.. initially dread doing the training lah.. then later start on my 1st set its actually ok.. climbed the 14 storeys 3 times.. 3 times only.. so its ok lah.. dunno why my legs doesn't hurt.. we did the side staircase.. that block of flats got three staircase.. 1 in the centre and 2 at the sides..

usually we do the center staircase.. but today we did the side staircase.. wah.. the ventilation there damn good lor!! so windy.. maybe thats why i feel its easier to do lah.. at the center staircase no air lor.. i feel so suffocated.. haha..

tml is a dead day for me.. PE running 8 rounds.. then after school going sentosa for the trial run and for PT.. hmmm.. initially my thinking was to slack for PE and then do my very best for PT lor.. but now i will do my very best for both!! haha.. buden ar.. this mengsan want to slack for PE.. then i sure will get influenced.. haha.. nono.. cannot follow her.. must persevere!!! ok.. here i go again.. rubbishing.. haha..

Tuesday, February 3, 2004 01:16 a.m.

yingqi is so funny.. haha.. she just messaged me to say that armageddon is very sad.. wat the.. and now she's telling me that liv tyler has sexy lips.. haha.. she's forever giving comments likdat.. pervertic yingqi!! hehe..

tml got vertical marathon training.. at 5pm lei!! i think i am not going lah.. got tuition tomorrow.. then i finish school at 1140.. so me and mengsan will do the vertical training ourselves.. i think its 4 times up the 14storey building.. *cross fingers* hope no haversack..

that time got haversack damn funny lah.. my back felt so heavy i feel like i was going backwards lor.. oh.. u noe i failed 2.4!! hmmm.. failed by 10secs lah.. i noe my running has never been good lor.. but it was never this bad lor.. i mean after i came JC lah. sec sch was a different thing altogether lah.. haha..

i was very upset about it lah.. i mean my target was dun improve nevermind.. as long as i keep to my last yr timing of 15.39 lah.. but i deproved by 1 min lei!! haha.. i think i took quite long to update abt it lah.. but i was very the upset abt it so took me quite a while to settle down my feelings.. haha.. not that anyone knew i was upset lah.. i just didnt like the idea of spreading my unhappiness..

unhappy already then unhappy right? nothing can do abt that.. i dun really like the idea of people comforting u.. worst still.. wait no one comforts u.. *smacks forehead* what am i talking abt ar? i think i am rambling now.. haha.. i just took my medicine and it says it cause drowsiness.. i dun feel drowsy lei.. only feel woozy..

back to my reflections.. haha.. ever since that fateful friday.. been doing a bit of reflections lah.. wat have i been doing for the past 6 months ever since the seniors stepped down lor. hui jie says mengsan sec sch days run 18 mins ++ but now she runs 13 minS++.. me lei? zero improvement..

but cannot be so bad right? i mean last yr my timing for 2.4 was before i joined OAC lei.. means to say i join OAC then deprove? cannot be right? eh.. i never take drowsy medicine before lei.. first time.. and i feel woozy.. so this is how it feels.. i cannot take it already.. alot of mistakes in my typing.. haha.. i go sleep le.. btw.. anyone knows how to lock a blog? i wanna lock mine..

Sunday, February 1, 2004 11:44 a.m.

argh!! my whole body is itchy now lorZ!! *tasukete* my whole leg is swollen cos i kept scratching them and my arms are dammit itchy lor.. my palms feels like as if a thousand mosquitoes are biting them lor.. haizz.. the rashes really very bad.. its so itchy and i feel so horrible until i wanna cry man.. i am not exagerrating ok.. first time i get rashes till so bad.

all because of bukit timah lah!! urgh.. i hate that place... went hiking there yesterday.. going there again next saturday.. shitified.. yesterday went to bukit timah rackey the place.. they changed the route lei.. they climbed all the way to the summit and the route the took is not easy lor.. got so many steps.. practically the whole way up the summit is like climbing steps lor..

got one part there was a bloody long stretch of stairs lor.. i couldnt even see the end.. they got put marks by the side of the stairs and at the end of the long stretch i already climbed 170 steps only from tat stretch lor.. before that got a lot more steps lor.. and the steps are totally steep and high ok.. the average step reaches till about my thighs lor.. then my legs already so short must climb the steps so high.. i was so tired when i finally reached the summit lor..

then i was complaining to huijie that this is just like training for vertical marathon lor.. then he was like "no.. this is worse than vertical marathon." thats like an understatement lor.. we climbed the summit then after that we still hiked from bukit timah all the way to macritchie ok.. we climbed 163 metres up to the summit and walked 10.9Km to macritchie.. and all of us had to carry 6.5kg load on our back.. the haversack wasn't a problem lor.. but my ankles and toes were so bloody pain man.. hmmm.. next week guys carry 10kg girls 8kg.. can make it!!

we reached bukit timah at 130 and we reached macritchie around 815 lor.. i think we were a bit late lah.. then when we were walking at macritchie the forest there it was dammit pitch black lor.. but they said dun on the torchlight cos it spoils our night vision so we walked with the guidance of the moon.. haha.. the place is very eerie lor.. then i was guiding the group mah.. then i walked damn fast lor.. haha.. then pratheepan and huijie were like slow down lah.. so funny.. while walking from bukit timah to macritchie huijie thot me how to walk faster.. hehe.. he told me to walk in bigger strides.. everytime my strides became smaller he'd OUI so loudly..

oh yah!! u noe at bukit timah got visitor's centre right? so after we climbed to the summit must of cos go down back lah.. then we stopped at the visitor's centre den we drank and i and huijie bought chocolate lah.. pratheepan took a huge bite outta mine and i was left with like 3/4 of the choco bar.. i ate the chocolate so happily then my teeth pain.. i wanted to give him the remaining of the chocolate lor.. then i wanted to take a last bite right when suddenly a monkey stepped onto my lapped and took the snickers bar away from me lor!! the cheek of the monkey!! i think my reaction a bit slow.. i thot it was william who snatched my choco bar since he was sitting beside me mah.. skali its a monkey.. haha.. stupid monkey lor.. i tried to grab its tail but its too quick.. monkeys there so wild lor.. and fierce.. bared its teeth at me lei.. but i also bared my teeth at the monkey.. i bet it got scared.. haha..

after the whole thing i was so tired i took a cab back lor.. wanted to go to chris place but so tired already so didnt go lor.. hmmm.. i took a cab back with huijie.. paid for most of the fare since he paid for my cab fare the last time round.. haha.. oh ok.. i need go doctor already.. =-)

Friday, January 30, 2004 07:18 p.m.

When you love you should not say,
God is in my heart,
But rather,
I am in the heart of God

but sadly.. i have not found God..
...

Friday, January 23, 2004 11:54 p.m.

wah.. just came back from joanne's place.. today is a good day.!! hehe.. they played black jack then i won quite a bit of money.. $18 lei! happies!! hehe.. shuwen lost $18 and i won $18.. haha.. i think we all very bad to tommy.. ketok him like crazy.. he also lose quite a bit.. tml if go to chris's place cannot gamble.. wait lose money no good.. hehe..

ok.. this entry won't be that long lah.. want to go watch my dearest chinese show already.. very nice!! anyway.. before i go, there is a quote u all must read!! i think its really got a lot of meaning.. hopefully those who need it will use it! ok.. i am starting to crap..

Attitudes are self-created.
You can either choose to be victimized by
circumstances and people, or choose to look at
life with an open mind and be victorious. No one
else can choose your attitude for you. Your
perspective and choice � of attitude gives you
the power to be in control. That is the essence
of true freedom.

Thursday, January 22, 2004 04:13 p.m.

i think.. people think too much.. haha..

Wednesday, January 21, 2004 10:55 p.m.

chris wanted to change the whole concept of the club
and with that they changed the name
that is why they changed the name
to give OAC a new begining

hah.. that was wat senior amos told me.. i finally found out the reason why OAC was renamed ODAC.. chris has always wanted more people for the club.. but with the way the club was runned no one wanted to join OAC.. but with the change in name many seniors lost their attachment to the club.. hmmm.. i think i am too attached to the club.. thats all i can say lah.. haha.. senior amos said that OAC back during his time was worst than ns.. the mental torture was bad.. i wonder if OAC was still runned as it was would i have been able to stayed on..

iyar!! i think i am thinking abt OAC too much.. haha.. this is insane lah.. anyway.. this is like the only place where i can share my attachment for the club other than the seniors.. haha.. the rest of my comrades dun really seem to share my feelings.. so for those who actually DO read my ramblings.. forgive me!! haha..

oh.. chris going to hold CNY gathering at his place.. wonder if any of my batch people going to come anot.. skali got alot of people no space for my batch.. haha.. and his place is not that big.. wah.. my arm aching from that injection.. like got swell.. irritating.. its like a mosquito buzzing around me man..

Wednesday, January 21, 2004 05:39 p.m.

urgh.. i seriously need help for physics man.. i understand thermodynamics.. but i dunno how to apply!! thats the worst for physics..

*picks at nose* i think i am gonna get a fever soon.. have myself to blame.. i love to play in the rain.. and i just love eating mandarin orange.. chinese new year is a bad period.. always have a lot of mandarin orange to eat.. and they cause heatiness.. blame it on my mom's bank.. they give out 4000 oranges.. my mom being kiasu tries to bring it all back..

sheesh.. i am ranting..

Wednesday, January 21, 2004 04:33 p.m.

If I have "HRT", I can add "EA" to get a "HEART"
Or "U" to get "HURT" ......
But I rather choose "U" to get "HURT"
Than to have a "HEART" without "U" ......

Wednesday, January 21, 2004 03:36 p.m.

*wow* been so long since i blogged.. wonder if anybody comes into my blog anymore also.. hmmm.. been so bloody busy with OAC these past 2 weeks.. practically stayed back everyday after school to discuss and plan.. but i think the planning is VERY worth it.. i learn so many things and all of us became closer through our frequent meetings..

last week on saturday and sunday we had an orientation camp for the year 1s.. pretty enthusiastic lah they all.. haha.. and they are very funny and cute.. especially the guys.. they like to flirt alot.. haha.. but i was pretty irritated with this guy called benjamin lah.. kinda disgust me.. he everytime play play say "nina.. i miss u.." its the way he said it lah!! really disgust me.. i try to get out of his reach all the time..

OVERall i was the food i/c lah.. then i sorta like got scolded by chailing and senior minghui cos i never forced the year1s to eat up ALL the food lor. they said i allowed the year1s to waste food.. haha.. that was during dinner lah.. then for supper and breakfast i think i was very fierce to them lah.. then they also very scared they good good eat every single bits up lor.. haha.. then for breakfast hor.. i gave them kaya to eat ma.. then not enuf bread for them to eat with the kaya.. then the guys had to eat the kaya likdat.. then i was a bit unhappy that they took so long to lick everything up lah.. then i was like "u all dun make me open one more tin of kaya for u all to lick ar.." and they really quickly finished it up.. haha.. so funny..

the camp was fun lah.. for the yr2s it was fun.. not sure whether its the same for the year1s anot.. cos they got punished a lot lor.. alot of them were pretty brazen and rude lah.. then alson punished them lor.. at 1am in the morning they were punished lor.. alson made them changed trackpants in 2 mins lor.. exceeded the time they had to change back to their shorts.. poor thing.. some of the yr2s nto really happy with that lah.. so mengsan and nigel told alson that sort of punishment is too LTC already.. afterall, they go for the orientation camp to enjoy wat..

at around 11pm they had a solowalk around ubin lah.. then everyone went off as station i/cs and stuff.. only me mengsan and songlin were left behind.. then senior minghui made the three of us keep all the year1s tents lor.. as a sort of punishment oso.. cos senior minghui said when the year1s set up the tents they were too slow and year2s were mainly doing the job.. haha.. then mengsan and i felt very happy.. cos we had a part in this thing wat.. haha..

we dismantled the tents den when the year1s came back around 1am they already very tired.. haha.. then got scolded somemore.. then they had to pitch their tents in the dark while we all year2s enjoyed our supper.. keke.. hah.. i wonder how many of the 40 year1s will stay on with us after this.. personally i felt that the punishments were too much lah.. cos the objectives of the orientation camp was just to let the year1s enjoy and have fun and mingle with the yr1s and yr2s.. but the yr2s felt that the punishment was called for because the year1s had very bad attitute...

oh.. on sunday morning right.. the year1s played tactical waterfare lah.. sort of like tactical movements but the ambushment involves water bomb.. at the end of it mr lawrence went around ubin with his bicycle and said for every plastic bag he found the yr2s will be punished with 20 push-ups.. in the end he found 4 plastic bags.. lucky its only 4 lor..

then he gave a long lecture to the yr1s lor.. then we all yr2s already so scared have to do 80 push-ups have to go thru his nagging lor.. i already can feel dread forming at the pit of my stomach lor.. but when we had to do the pushups right.. it was not so bad.. i was pretty touched that the yr1s did it with us although they didnt have to lah.. my arms ached when doing the pushups lor.. but i pretend it didnt feel a thing cos we were doing it in front of the yr1s mah.. cannot lose face.. but we had to do it on sand lor.. my knees really hurt.. after the pumping my knees were bleeding lah.. but no time to care cos lawrence went into his tirade again.. haa.. bored..

oh.. throughout our camp there got this dog everytime with us.. then chailing called it siaohuang.. haha.. very cute lah.. then on sunday siaohuang suddenly so playful lor.. kept on biting my hand.. haha.. actually i didnt mind.. so i let it bite.. playful only mah.. she bite not as pain as jetaime bite.. then suddenly that banana tell me i could get rabish from wild dog bites.. wah.. i damn scared.. haha.. i tried to take my hands away but siao huang still played.. in the end i scolded her and then she just sat there.. so obedient..

i went doctor for an injection against rabish lah.. den the doctor lim told me that rabish hasnt been in singapore for a long time.. relieved.. but i still got injection.. now my arms aching ar.. cant do my regular pushups properly.. but siao huang is a good doG!! during the year1s nightwalk right, some of the yr1s said that siao huang followed them.. hehe.. so nice of her.. when me and mengsan at the campsite alone she also accompanied us..

but she everytime come at thewrong time.. when we having our meals she nv come.. then couldnt give her any food.. in the end i only gave her lick kaya and milo.. hee.. better than nutting right?

for the whole camp i practically never eat lor! haha.. cos its really abit the taxing and stressing to make sure everything goes well during my activity lor.. then i never eat dinner then supper only drink milo.. then breakfast i eat 1 slice of bread already feel like vomitting.. i cant eat in the morning one. i reached home from the camp at around 330.. then i didnt even eat at all lor.. i didnt even bathe.. i just change clothes den i POM on the bed.. and i slept until 5am the next day lor!! damn tired.. dunno why i go school on monday oso.. alot of the OACians nv go sch.. then i went home earlier then yesterday and today i never go school.. wat a long break for me!! hehe..

but i very guai yesterday lor!! i did alot of homework.. all the homework that i never do for the past 2 weeks i gonna finish them during this hols.. then i woke up this morning i watched dvd.. scary movies 3 damn lame.. ju-on totally boring.. last samurai ok.. then my bro bought a new keyboard so now can log online already!!

oh yah.. cross country coming up already.. then the committee set a target for us.. 8 people must go into the top50.. lets say only 7 go into the top50 right.. the whole club have to climb a 12storey building 10 times.. wah.. if only 5 people go into the top50 means we have to climb the 12 storey building 30 times.. will die.. but they said its oso part of the plan to train us for the vertical marathon lah.. its coming up in march i think.. anybody interested to join? hehe.. not sure which building we gonna climb this time.. hopefully its suntec tower four lor.. only 43 storeys.. if its OUB tower.. will die.. 64 storeys.. haha..

hmmm.. this march holidays got a trip to taman negara.. wonder if i should go anot.. its for 5 days or 4 days.. feel like going lor.. got a lot of fun things.. like tubing!! buden the week after the march hols is the block test lor.. then if i want to get my computer must study hard for it.. haiz.. sianz.. then LTC right.. we going to go overseas oso.. but i think its not everyone go.. cos too many people.. then i think they will ballot.. so not confirmed can go..

wah wah.. this entry also pretty long.. haha.. i think i will like 1 week never blog then i one time come with bombard the page.. hehe.. oh.. so long never see the jojo and glynis!! miss u guys a lot man!! hmmm.. andy and tammy and the other stupid gang.. miss me? muahaha.. sure missed u guys.. meet up soon alright? *peace out*

Sunday, January 11, 2004 09:19 p.m.

school started and things are really getting very busy now.. so much things to do and so much going through my mind, but all chucked to one corner.. hmmm.. this whole week, everytime come back around 8+ 9+.. no time for anything also..

all school work also put on hold.. now more important is OAC.. the three major events of the year has yet to pass so pretty busy doing proposals and shit lah.. but i think its pretty good doing all these lah, because by planning and running for the activities we actually became closer.. we practically meet everyday during this week!

wednesday we had the cca bazaar.. must say it was really successful lah.. 353 people signed up with us.. we were amazed and at the same time abit scared of the number lah.. haha.. cos 353 people right.. reduce reduce then still like got a lot of people will come.. then abit the dunno how to handle such a large number of people lah..

saturday supposed to go to school for chem lah.. but friday night i stayed up like damn late to do proposals then i didnt go school for chem lor.. woke up a bit later then i went to school for oac.. met the other oacians go and have breakfast.. saw mary and mich too!! michelle looked abit sickly lor.. gave her a huge hug! she very nice to hug!! haha.. maybe its because we about the same height? hehe.. but i thought she looked more err.. tame? not as naughty as she looked like lah if u get wat i mean..

oh.. the orientation party right..wah.. the turnout was pretty good lor.. over 120 people came lei.. we were so shocked see so many people.. we were sorta like hoping 50 will turn up? haha.. den divide them into groups of 6 each group got 20 over lor.. then i group leader of group 2 lah.. they very quiet lei!! me and hui jie keep on talking and talking they still so quiet.. but they opened up towards the end lah..

then my group right, got this girl from chung cheng main ar.. she very pretty lor.. and very funny.. haha.. then she quite easy to talk to so i talked to her pretty often lah.. she got those kinda convent look? haha.. and she said she like to do outdoor sports and camps so i guess she is a potential stayer!! must make her stay in OAC!! my group also got this guy called clarence lah.. i thought he looked like wenqiang!! but he the nerdier type lah..

dunno why ar.. my group ar.. majority is from computer club lor! *pengz* and ar!! this batch of year 1s ar.. i think got a lot of sissy guys... haha.. my group already got 2 lor!! haha.. then played a lot of games lah.. my group very enthu BUT still never win also.. haha.. my group bully me lor! got this game called obstacle course right.. then one of the obstacle is eating this apple on the table without touching it nor the table..

then got 4 apples lor.. all fuji onez.. i buy one k.. haha.. then right.. they eat till very disgusting lor!! then at the end they asked me finish up the apple.. FORCED me to ok.. then i eat so yucky.. somemore i ate the WHOLE apple.. really everything.. fuji apple no stalk so i ate the seed and everything lor.. and apple core dun really taste very nice.. haha.. quite bitter lor.. but my group people all very cute.. got this two cedar girls keep pocking my stomach lor.. then very noisy den keep on hugging each other and saying they lesbian.. haha.

this huijie lah.. everyting also i do.. then i also blur sometimes.. haha.. then got some games i myself dunno how to play lor.. hmmm.. then the last game right.. which is played for a duration of 1hr30mins lah.. then kuanyong took my place as a group leader cos i station i/c for the game mah.. then my station is the wall lah.. then my group came right.. then i asked them physical or mental.. then they already guessed that physical is to climb the wall lor.. but they still took it.. they quite enthu lah.. all the 6 groups went pass me for the wall..

i must say that the guys are pretty fit.. almost all of them can climb the wall without difficulties.. but the girls its a different story.. so i just taught them how to anchor.. and then the guys helped push them from there.. then they very kan chiong lor.. climb already quickly want to get down.. then got one girl fall from the wall then landed on her knees.. actually nutting wrong one.. then suddenly all the blood started dripping.. alot lei!! haha.. then i see already i also dunno wat to do.. abit the panicked..

then i keep running around screaming for the 1st aider.. haha.. come to think of it the whole situation a bit the funny.. overall i have to say that the year 1s are pretty lame lah.. haha.. u noe the school's orientation there is the hunk right? then the hunk was down for the activity lor. but he's not very handsome.. but he got the charm lah.. like to joke a lot.. then this bing xiang ar.. when introduce himself and OAC right.. he pronounced ODAC as O-DUCK lor... then everyone laughed at him.. haha.. stupid president of ours..

oh.. then after the whole thing right.. the OACians went to bishan to eat lah.. then we saw this year 1 who came for our activity.. then he very friendly.. he approached us and talk to us lor.. then his bus came lei.. then he board the bus then suddenly brian goh asked "Come eat with us!" but the door closed when he said that.. haha.. then brian goh paiseh already he said "Cheebye!" so loudly lor!! luckily no one really take note of it lah..

today we went rackey at ubin! met at 8.30am.. so early lor.. i almost dun wanna wake up.. but met them lah.. then i take the train alone so boring.. luckily at city hall i met yating.. then nigel called me said he'll be late.. then late till like half an hour lor.. haha.. we wait till sianz also.. actually wanted to go to chek jawa.. buden we didnt go lah.. too busy planning out the actually route that the year 1s will take during their solowalk for the camp at night..

i want to be the station i/c for the solowalk lor.. but because i food i/c i need to prepare supper for the year 1s so cannot be station i/c lor.. i want to experience sitting in the forest alone at night by myself lor.. that time during our LTC when i did my solowalk i already imagine a lot of things lor.. imagine sitting at the forest yourself.. i think i will imagine even worst lor.. haha..

anyway.. today i think me and alson sorta like got into an argument lah.. then everybody was like telling me to cool down lor.. haha.. but we worked out our differences after that lah.. and alson does not bear grudges which is good to me lah.. cos i this type of bad-tempered people i will just lash out at anybody one lor. then i was like telling alson i scold u its because i care and for ur welfare.. haha..

talking about welfare right.. that banana damn irritating lor.. he went to ubin with us lei.. then asked us a lot of questions abt the camp lor.. then he so concern with minor details like whether we gonna let them change clotheS? like what the hell.!! then we arguing with him that we all outdoor people should experience sleeping when we are dirty lor.. then he asked us whether we EVER experienced sleeping when we are wet dirty and muddy lor.. then we all shouted YES! then he asked again 2 more times lei!! then we so irritated me and mengsan was like YES YES YES!! he so concerned abt the welfare lor..

then he tok to me abt the camp food.. he wants the people to be full lor.. like wat the hell right.. i mean its a camp lor.. not a a leisure thing lor.. stupid mr ong.. haiz.. things are pretty hard for us now lor.. being the transition batch right.. got a lot of the hus and the has lor.. its like now all the teachers-in-charge are not communicating amongst themselves lor.. then each of them got a different idea of what odac should be lor.. and we are put in a fixed spot lor..

den the 2 new teacher-in-charge right.. they totally want to move odac away from OAC lor.. how can right..!! i mean its not fair to the seniors of other batches lor.. they do so much to build OAC up.. do so much to set the standard for us.. and we dun want to be the batch that destroys the oac dream lor.. haizz.. i think i am just yacking on and on lah.. but this is really how i feel lor.. being in the club for over a year already i feel attached to it lor.. i dun want us to be the batch that starts the segregration of the club as a whole.. haiz.. so irritatin!! EVERYTIME OUR BATch lei!! last time in mayflowersecsch also my batch kena loR!!

aiya.. tomolo got chem test lei.. and i never study for it lor.. so busy.. too busy to study for it.. somemore my family now watch LOTR the two towers.. then later watching ju-on.. haha.. so i also want to watch! keke.. wah.. this entry very long.. i salute those of u who actually finished reading this.. haha..

Friday, January 2, 2004 02:12 a.m.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! muahaha.. as usual i am late wishing all the beautiful and hunky peeps out there.. hehe.. no choice.. busy people like me no time for trivial things.. hehe.. but acct i spent new year's eve alone at home!! so sad can.. acct i went out earli in the morning.. went out at 10pm.. met lingyu take something from her for my brother then headed home..

then supposed to go out at 6pm then 5pm i getting ready and everything they tell me plan cancelled nobody wanna go out!! boohoo.. so sad.. i really spent new year's eve alone k!! my bro and mom went out and none came back home.. stupid.. left me alone to mop at home.. hehe..

then on new year i went out.. thank goodness.. hehe.. but i dun mind staying home on new year cos everyone at home.. hehe.. i went to hyatt to eaT!! hehe.. u might think its expensive lah.. but i spent less than 15 cos i only drink and eat mushroom soup and drink.. hmmm.. tml supposed to go swimming with my superlame darling mengsan.. but she last min say got family dinner then afternoon jeremy ask her to go rackey for the urban orientation thing that they are in charged of.. poor her..

acct its today supposed to swim.. but i see her message too late then i already made plans to go hyatt.. hehe.. oh well.. so postponed our swimming session to saturday after trg.. got trg le still want swim.. skali too tired wont swim..

yay!! i finally completed my proposal for the orientation camp next year!! haiz.. always got proposals.. one after another.. so sianz.. after this proposal i have to do another one for the dragon boating event that i am in charge of.. boring ar! somemore pair me up with jing ting.. so horrible work with him... but he is a good worker ar!! i shouldn't complain..

we planned for the LTC right.. then all the committee members will have so-called important rolls during the camp.. and guess wat they put me as lor.. KITCHEN IC!! can u believe it!! and i totally refused but i had no say!! thats the only post left for me.. dammit.. i have to learn how to cook ok!! for the whole duration of 6 days or how many days they wanna have the camp lah.. idiot.. then must write proposals on what food i wanna cook, why i cook them and the stupid nutritional benefits.. must write the cooking procedures somemore.. SCREW THEM LAH!!

ok fine.. i will do my job well!! anyway.. this sunday will be celebrating my twin brother's 26th birthday.. i didnt buy them any gifts.. they say no need mah.. haha.. thank god lor.. cos i myself broke.. then this sunday we will be going out in the afternoon to buy a DVD set and a hp for each of my brothers.. because of them my mom put my computer on hold!! grrr.. she say either march or april buy.. by the time comes she sure make some other excuses then will not buy any lor!! i am sure of it! but i will bug and bug till she get headache!! hehe..

then after that go have sea food dinner at pasir panjang!! sinful man!! haizz.. buten just now alson tell me that sunday my orientation camp committee might go to pulau ubin to rackey the place for the camp.. argh!! why must they do this to me..!! i told alson i available only in the morning lor. after 12 i wont go le.. my brothers are more important!

my first brother very nice to me noe!! muahahaha.. i just love him so much man!! he said he will buy me a laptop if i get into the university.. cos he said all his friends in uni having a hard time cos they dun have a laptop.. then everytime need to rent from the university then alot of people also need to rent.. but he can buy for me one lah.. he already have a stable job.. he has close to 2 years to save for my lap top.. hahah..

oh yah.. next year he also want to move.. he actually want to find a house in toa payoh so that he can be close to us lah.. but my mom disapprove.. cos houses in toa payoh is expensive! even the smallest house of 3 rooms cost around 300 000 plus plus lei.. my house cost 640 000 lei!! though it dun looks like lah.. haha.. looks more like a pig sty worth 1000.. hehe..

then my mom ask him find house in sengkang but he dun want lor.. so far.. then he go work oso inconvenient.. so mom say find house in kim keat lor.. i dun like the name of the place though.. its so like.. "where u staying?" "kim keat." like wat kinda name is that lor.. haha.. i am crapping..

oh.. then my brother asked me to move in with him.. hehe.. i am so toucheD!! he said if i dun move in with him then who i can move in with lor.. he said i cant really mix well with my other brothers.. like real.. haha.. in truth i get along well with all my brothers.. but sad lei.. have 4 brothers.. no sisters to share my feelings.. haha.. no wonder people say i abit the tomboyish lor.. that time i put on makeup for the christmas party they laughed at me.. the hell.. i swear i will never put on makeup with them around me ever again..

hehe.. but i dun wanna leave my mom so i said dun think so lah.. maybe will stay once in awhile.. if i stay there permanently hor.. i will grow fatter man.. my sis-in-law.. wah.. she cooks good food lor.. and she cooks all the time..

my niece and nephews eat dammit alot that time when she came to stay for a week.. they eat practically like every 2 hours lor!! i see them eat i also scared ar.. then she tries to feed me and brother like crazy.. but not successful.. haha.. my mom forbids her to tempt me with food.. hehe..

oh.. any of u made resolutions for the new year? haha.. i made alot!! but i guess i most prolly wont follow any.. except for one!! that is TO BE HAPPY AND LEAVE ALL WORRIES BEHIND!! happy new year peeps! ciaoz!!

Wednesday, December 31, 2003 11:54 p.m.

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
i held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me

Wednesday, December 31, 2003 01:56 a.m.

yay!! i am back to update again.. haha.. bored lah.. nutting to do now.. stupid mary went offline already then no one to tok to le!! then my big tv spoil again then everyone watching the smaller tv then cannot play games!! sad sad!!

wah.. tml new year's eve.. but nutting much to do la.. going out around 10am? so early right!! dunno i can wake up notz.. hehe.. then prolly will reach home by like 5 or 6 lor.. nvm.. tml everyone in my family gg out so i can have the tv all to myself to play game!!

alamak.. suddenly i nutting to update already.. sianz of updating.. haha..

Tuesday, December 30, 2003 12:09 a.m.

today's trg is really very tough ok.. in my opinion it is lah.. and we havent had a PT so tough in a very long while already.. today a handful of the seniors from different batches came down.. because the teachers wont be around so they are sorta like keeping an eye on us.. and i think thats the reason why PT was so tough lah..

initially it wasnt too bad.. only 40 push-ups, and 2.4km.. we knew that after 2.4 there are 3sets of circuits for us to do.. so we thought run 9 rounds not so bad.. we did the 2.4 everyone supposed to complete in 15mins lah.. i can safely say everyone met the targetted time lah.. then suddenly i dunno what happened then i was running with the seniors.. coming to my 6th round, senior minghui suddenly say to huifen and baba, "Make them do 10 more rounds minimum."

so huifen was like encouraging me and saying common nina only 4 more rounds.. den senior minghui said no.. ten rounds starting from then.. means an additional ten rounds.. i hear already i peng ar.. throughout the additional ten round right, i kept on thinking when is it gonna end lor.. and i think that itself in a way made the run seem longer.. then towards the 5th round i kept telling myself only 5 more rounds.. and it ended pretty fast!! haha.. after the PT i reflected i was pretty amazed by how the mind controls your whole being lah.. haha.. no wonder they always say mind over body..

yup.. then after the whole run we did sets lah.. but we didnt have any run after that lah.. i mean crazy lah ok.. run 15 rounds already still wanna make us run.. but my point is luckily never lah.. sets werent too bad at first.. haha.. then the seniors they self-improvised the thing and it became bad lah.. 1 monkey bar.. 10 dips.. 40 steps.. we are supposed to lift up the logs 15 on each arm lah.. then i wanted to take the lightest one.. then baba gave me that type of skeptical look.. then i took the 2nd lightest.. then she was like u sure that is your limit? take the 2nd heaviest one.. my god.. really heavy ok.. by the 10th lift my arms shaking lor..

and that's only the first set.. then after the lift supposed to do the wall.. my arms were shaking all the time.. the 1st set i couldnt do it so baba assisted me.. then the second set ar.. i could lei!!! then huifen was like saying i can inscript on the wall nina has conquered the wall.. wat the.. but its erally very tough lah.. i struggled with the wall like crazy ok.. it took my whole will to swing myself over..

but!! the third set i completely knock out.. i tried to do and i fell off the wall.. hahaa. baba helped me lor!! thanks to baba!! then finish already.. this PT is quite long lor.. its lasted for 4hrs++.. then after that still cannot go home!! cos we got a general meeting.. wat the.. the briefing already took so long lor.. and the seniors had a lot to complain.. but baba praised me.. muahaha.. she said i could do leg-raises better than the guys lor.. and my face so red.. i so embarrassed lor.. yupz.. then we did debrief for the christmas party also..

after that still got the presentation of the proposals.. wat the.. that time after the presentation of the proposals already 215.. then bing xiang dismissed the rest of the club and called for a committee gathering.. *pengs* tired already and no food!! then xinyi told us she'd give us 1hr lunch break then we come back and discuss the LTC proposal..we were all like NO!! haha.. thats why tomolo must go back to school to discuss it lor..

hmmm.. i think there's sort of like a lot of squabbles and conflicts within the club.. the committee itself is not very united and there are alot of cliques... not everyone is united ya.. then xinyi called me just now around 1040.. then she was like asking me whether i had any comments to add abt today lah.. i was like no? then she was like are u sure.. then she said that she noes that alot of people are angry and have grudges against her lor.. ya..

then she asked for my opinion.. i didnt deny that i was one of those unhappy with her lah.. and i told her lor.. i said the reason why we weren't happy is because alot of us felt she didnt had the compassion that a leader should possess lor.. true she should be firm at times but there are times that she can be compassionate also lor.. then some of the mates thought that she was overly bossy and step over her line of authority lor. which i am not sure is entirely right lah.. but she does tend to take things out on us when she is in a bad mood lah..

hmmm.. its really very difficult to maintain a club with 30 people in lor.. senior chris always say ~~ with quality goes quantity, with quantity goes quality.. i dunno why they changed the rules for my batch.. but senior chris said our batch they wanted the quantity, that's why quality had to be compromised.. haiz.. past batches right, they said the most number of people is only 12 lor.. guess not alot can take the tough trgs of the past lah.. no wonder bball also not a lot of people lah huh.. haiz.. and its always our batch that this kinda things happened!! hahaha..

watever lah uh.. i wont harp on it too much.. we are having a meeting for this tml also wat.. as minor as it may sound, the issue in itself is really in dire need of serious attention lor..

Monday, December 29, 2003 01:52 a.m.

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

the christmas party is finally over!! *phew* wat a relieve.. we spent quite a long time to prepare for it ok.. hmm.. but the turn out was a little disappointing lah..we were expecting close to a hundred people.. in the end only like 60 turned out? haha.. and there was more than enuf food for everyone.. the food is good though..

we had like ice breakers games and dancing! haha.. we were all dancing like mad lor.. then we pulled all the past batches seniors to join us.. and they dance damn hilarious.. but baba dance very nice.. very cool!! but tml which is monday we are gonna have a debrief for the party.. xinyi said mrs koh is gonna scold us cos we took so long to pull the seniors to join us in the dance.. said we were all in our own worlds..

the party ended like around 1240.. then we cleared then everybody left already lah.. then me hui jie, brian mok, lingyu and mengsan just slacked around fool here and there.. then we went up to nigel's place around like 120? put our bags then we took a cab and went to plaza singapura to watch school of rocks..

then we saw the whole bunch of them at PS.. shao jia, yingqi, jerome, bing xiang, guoping, yating.. they also catching the same show..then they are only sitting in front of us! so coincidental.. the show is good lah.. then after the show we went back to nigel's place.. around 4+ lah.. then i took my bag then took a cab to bishan.. met gavin boonteck and ben.. hehe.. waste a lot of money on cabs!! somemore its midnight charge..

met them den they were drinking beer.. i didnt want to drink lah.. my stomach felt quite queasy after eating nachos and popcorns.. haha.. then tok here and there den skali they say go eat breakfast.. time passes by very fast~! haha.. went to the kopitiam and the breakfast very cheap!! only $1 lei.. got a slice of bread, 2 eggs and a cup of coffee/tea..

then ben was like asking me, what kinda underwears for guys turn me on lah.. g-string, normal wears or boxers.. then i pondered damn long lah.. then i finally answered.. "U cant ask me this type of question because i am not a normal girl.." then gavin just gave me a cheeky grin and said yeah.. like wth? hahaha.. then they were like all saying that crocodile underwear is a total turnoff.. wat a topic lor.. i feel like they all gays or something.. but only 1 is gay lah.. hahha..

oh.. it was boon teck's birthday.. den i made him a card.. i think its damn nice.. and boon teck was pretty happy abt it lah.. he was like going on and on abt how he like people to do cards themselves.. den his friends made him cards for christmas and he damn touched.. boring stuff lah hur.. then stupid ben never give him any face and slept while he was toking.. wat the..

oh.. the christmas exchange right.. i got a damn good present lah!! we exchange then i got this wrapped thing lah.. everybody was fussing with the presents.. then i never even open mine den i saw jerome holding a body shop bag!! i literally ran to him ok.. then he opened the package and got body shop products!! i forced him to exchange with me.. muahahaha.. he opened his present which his actually mine lah.. then a got a really pretty clock!! the type that will hit a bell when the alarm goes off.

then he was like saying.. my present also u want.. haha.. then i was like no lah.. nice only mah.. so good!! xinyi got my present.. she said thanks to me.. i was like thinking she wouldn't be saying thanks if she got my present.. haha.. tml i got training.. sorta like looking forward to it cos i havent been getting a real workout.. gtg sleep already.. tata!!

Saturday, December 27, 2003 01:59 a.m.

i went to nigel's place today.. his place is really cool.. and what the.. i got lost going there alright!! i left my hse at 145pm but i reached there at 4!! shows how long i was lost.. at first i took the wrong bus.. ended up at novena square.. wat the.. his house is at town! then i took another bus.. then this bus proves to be on the wrong side.. ended up at far east..

i was pretty fed up lah.. called nigel and finally took the right bus.. haha.. reached his place den saw the condo.. at first see the condo so ugly!! its like really damn old.. but looks can u deceiving u noe.. cos the interior is really damn nice.. nicer than joanne's condo? the condo has only 1 block.. and pretty high.. and there is a lobby at the residential block.. and its air-conditioned.. just like a hotel's.. got reception desk.. the lift oso like from hotel one.. haha..

i forced nigel to bring his kitty down.. its so cute.. but looks pretty malnutritioned.. haha.. i was the lucky few who got to see his apartment.. its really damn huge lor the place.. my hse is a 5-room executive.. its like considered the biggest area in my district for HDB flats lah.. but nigel's place is like bigger than mine? its like pretty amazing to see a condo with such a huge land area..

but houses around town area is pretty expensive.. nigel said his condo 2 years ago there was only 2 asian family staying there.. but now there's like 6? really lor.. all the residents i see there is all the ang moh.. guess only they can afford this type of expensive place.. my mom says the place can easily fetch 850K.. tml the girls are gonna come to my place to get ready for the party.. its gonna be fun..

we were planning to stay overnight at nigel's place with some of the other guys.. but then gavin called me just now and asked me to come after the party to celebrate boonteck's bday with him ben and dunno who lah.. how how!! so bad like dun go but i already planned good good wat to do after the party.. guess will just have to reject them ba.. haha..

oh.. i almost forgot abt the christmas present that i am supposed to get.. so went town to get famous amos cookies then i put them in this really nice box.. but the box is like too empty with only the cookies inside.. guess wat i put? i put peaches inside!! haha.. damn funny.. then i took all those unwanted gel candles from my room and added them inside.. haha.. nobody will noe.. and the candle is nice and expensive ok!! but i kept it for so long also no use.. might as give away.. hehe..

but i think the peaches is damn funny lah.. i mean who gives peaches as a gift right? but i wrote on the card and i said dun get shocked when u see the peaches.. but i think its damn cute..

Friday, December 26, 2003 05:34 a.m.

sinful is the delusion
creating a tangle of deceit

Friday, December 26, 2003 04:28 a.m.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!! oops.. guess i am abit too late.. but who cares? its christmas everyday!! muahahaha...

got back from andy's place around 1145? took a freakin cab back ok.. big lost of money.. no joke.. but thank god its before midnight.. went to his place to him help with the last minute preparations for the function around like 450? ok.. so i was like 4 hours late.. hehe.. couldn't help it.. i was sleeping!! and mom's so nice today gave everybody a treat of pizza so i just have to stay home to eat!!

and that mother fu@#er kept pinching my arse cos i didn't wear formal.. and not playful pinch ok.. its pinch pinch.. i think my ass is full of blues and the blacks.. watever.. rand's back!! finally.. he went to LA and brought me niceties!! chocolates.. *rolls eyes* figures..

the function was good ok.. it started at 7 but most people came only like around 8? and most of em i dunno so i kept on sticking to andy and tam.. muahaha.. they must have found me highly annoying.. and it turns out that most people didn't dress formal.. but who's to blame? the host himself was dressed sloppily.. so much for a formal function..

there was a ball at around 930? its not even a ball lah.. the music and atmosphere is totally not bally but andy calls it that so there.. i didn't dance.. felt amazingly tired.. went to his room and used the comp.. spoke to wendy for a while.. that poor girl.. hope she's feeling better..

ok.. so right now i am sorta like feeling guilty.. supposed to meet gav at 630 to go to noreen's place.. but i didn't turn up and lied that i went for a talk.. wtf? of all things a talk? cant i lie better? oh.. but what's done is done right? no point brooding over it.. muahaha..

christmas eve hanged out with the usual bunch as per every christmas eve since i was like sec3? wanted to stay home actually.. cos i still have not finished my proposal.. and i didnt complete it!! but i am glad i did come out.. missed those bunch of wackos.. namely only jojo and glyn lah.. haha.. we had loads of fun..

we met at 7 at bishan.. everybody was late.. i should have known.. but not that late like connie cheryl late? haha.. only like by 15 to 20 mins.. susanne was like saying she'll be terribly late.. it turns out she's late only by 25 mins? i was expecting like late by 1 or 2 hrs? so this stupid monkey wore boardshorts.. how to go clubbing with boardshorts!! so all of us had to accompany her back so she could change to jeans..

then after that her brother tagged along!! haha.. it was damn funny.. and he's so shy.. didn't even speak to us.. dunno where all his friends go.. we went to orchard by train lah.. so this wenqiang was standing behind shuwen.. and then he started smelling himself.. damn hilarious.. den he smelt shuwen's back.. and he was like.. SMELLY.. hahaha.. and it does stink ok.. but not that bad lah.. haha..

we went to wisma to meet up with joanne and kin.. and then joanne was highly amused to see wenqiang.. and she was like going "i watch him grow up!!" haha.. we went to cine shortly after.. took the back route to avoid the crowds.. he parted with us shortly after.. he wasn't missed trust me.. hehe.. okok.. i am so full of crap.. i wont really elaborate more.. for more information visit shuwen's webbie..

after we lalalala we went to boat quay.. shuwen u hear me? its BOAT quay.. not CLARKE quay.. went to monks lah.. so boring.. but who cares lah.. we were in our own world oso.. then went shah alam and had supper.. big supper ok.. then we went to the riverside.. hehe.. ok.. the riverside is a private joke between me and jojo.. *scratches head* u noe.. i get a feeling that none of u will understand wat i am talking abt if u read my entry.. *shrugs*

when all is silent, YOU gave me bliss..

MERRY CHRISTMAS once again!! or should i say belated merry christmas? okok.. i think i should shut up and go before i turn even loonier..

Tuesday, December 23, 2003 08:11 p.m.

ok.. i am just taking a break from doing my proposal.. really giving me a headache.. doubt i'll be able to complete it by tml.. so might not be able to go for xmas eve anyway.. sorry jojo!! i will try my best.. haha..

this is really fuck shit.. a total dampener for the festives man.. they tell me last min need the proposal by the 26th.. and then how the hell am i gonna complete it myself! i am only left with less than 36 hrs to finish it.. not counting off my sleep time and eating time and resting time.. oh u get wat i mean..

on the 25th andy's throwing a christmas party at his place.. i've already given my word to be there.. on the 26th will be going over to nigel's place to do the pre-party preparations and such.. and 27th the day of the party! no time i tell ya.. NO TIME!!

on the 29th there is bloody PT.. havent had PT in awhile.. hope my stamina is not that bad.. okok.. enuf rest.. back to the dreaded proposal..

Saturday, December 20, 2003 02:28 a.m.

ok.. this is real funny.. u guys gotta try it.. damn amusing..

1. while sitting at your desk make clockwise circles with your right foot.
2. while doing this, draw the number "6" in the air with your right hand

your foot will change direction!!

i cant get them to coordinate.. *shrugs* yeah i do this in my time of boredom..

Thursday, December 18, 2003 03:22 a.m.

thanks to the mary cheryl connie liling and mich for the birthday gift!! appreciated it alot.. thanks guys!!

Monday, December 15, 2003 03:33 p.m.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL!!!

hehe.. finally its cheryl's birthday.. hehe.. long awaited eh? oh.. i am supposed to go out with yingqi shaojia and xinyi today but i was too tired and couldn't like realli wake up lah.. they meet so earli can.. always meet in the morning.. meet at 1030!! meet to do the farewell gift for the seniors.. i figured since i am not involved i might as well not come.. still pondering whether i shld go with ms and ly go shop tml? most prob i will end up not gg.. hehe..

i had a real bad dream ok.. at least in my opinion its bad lah.. i dreamt we were having PT.. and everyone had to sprint one round of the track lah.. ok.. so i sprint.. wah.. i tot i very fast lah.. cos got a lot of people lagging behind me ma.. then i reached the ending point.. the PTI, which is hui jie la, told me my timing.. its 19mins!! for one pathetic round? isn't it scary? boohoo..

and yeah.. i woke up today.. i received 6 messages.. and outta the 6, 3 were birthday messages!! wat the!! its not my birthday.. haha.. yingqi shaojia and xinyi all thought its my birthday today and they sent me sorta real long bday msgs.. i didn't correct them though.. didn't reply thanks or watsoever.. hehe.. will tell them when we meet on friday..

oh.. once again.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHERYL!!

Saturday, December 13, 2003 11:32 p.m.

fellowship of the ring is good man!! no wonder my brothers liked it so much.. i am totally gonna catch the 3rd installment of LOTR.. might be catching the movie this friday with the other oacians.. but they all ar.. everytime say wanna watch movie in the end never lor.. so see how? haha.. if shuwen not working then will ask her and fats go watch!! haha.. right shuwen?

xinyi messaged me and asked if i wanna go for the kayaking 3 star course.. it'll be on the 17th, 20th, 24th and 28th of this month.. seems like will be a pretty busy time for me.. i am still contemplating on whether to go anot.. the school will be subsidising the full cost for us.. but yingqi and the rest not gg.. so i might not go after all.. somemore its on the 24th.. imagine spending christmas eve kayaking.. forget it..

Saturday, December 13, 2003 09:23 p.m.

biabia!! ok.. if u dunno who u are then its olivia ok? sze get it? haha.. i decided i had too much to say to be put on either of our tag-boards.. hehe.. just visited ur so-called little haven.. petals of our lives.. familiar? haha.. kinda sweet that thing.. i dunno what to refer it to but its really sweet lah..

and i never kneW!! shucks.. i was a little surprised noe.. cos since primary sch i've always felt that u are of butch material? haha.. no offence!! realli.. we've been such long time friends yet there's so little we know about each other.. haha.. the music of that little blog is playing while i am typing this.. hehehe.. okok.. i'll shut up now..

i am watching fellowship of the rings!! it'd better be good..

Saturday, December 13, 2003 04:43 p.m.

yoohoo.. i am back updating my blog once again.. haha.. just got back.. pretty early huh? but i am tired lah.. woke up at 645 today to go for the dreaded meeting.. sucks la ok.. got scolded alot lor.. but the scoldings are at least not really directed to the committee members lah..

we met up with the christmas party committee to discuss wat they had organized for the upcoming farewell cum christmas party for the 24 batches of seniors.. OAC really goes a long way man.. iyar.. but i got scolded for talking while covering my mouth.. getting scolded by mrs koh really makes my heart thump ok. if it was that lawrence i wouldnt give a f**cking damn..

we were hoping that the meeting would take only like 2 hrs? but it stretched on to like 3 and a half hrs? boohoo.. was bored ok! somemore i so tired.. slept only like 2 hrs the previous night.. ended around 12? then we went to plaza singapura and shop for our christmas wear.. we went from shop to shop and tried out at least one clothes item in each shop ok.. it was so fun.. haha.. i tried out a lot of skirts.. then there was one leather skirt very short!!

haha.. den yingqi was like laughing like mad cos i looked damn gross in it? ended up not buying anything lah.. like so expensive if i buy a top and a skirt lor.. i think i'd rather wear pants then skirt.. but yingqi they all insisted on skirts.. and mrs koh too apparently.. shucks.. i think i'll just get a dress from topshop and be done with it.. only around 60 plus? but really.. i feel its not worth it lah.. pay 60 plus for something i am only gonna wear once..

i already thot of not going for the party lor.. but we will be staying over at nigel's place.. and i think it'd be damn fun lor.. i msged nigel asking him whether we could use his place and he was like sure.. said his room has 4 beds and a sleeping bag and the other room has 4 beds as well.. then he said downstairs is an open air area? wonder wat his place is like lor.. condominium got 2 storeys one meh?

his condo the name so chic lor.. wing of life condo.. haha.. its near town that area lah.. yingqi said go clubbing after the party then go back nigel's place but not very nice to come back to his place at like 3 or 4 in the morning right? anyway, aileen might be staying ova too.. so it'd be fun..

i want to go for the trip to taman negara next year.. aileen asked me but i dun think i will la.. yingqi and the rest will not be going so i cant possibly stick to aileen right? she has nigel anyway.. cannot interfere.. haha..

oh.. sabrina came and join us when we were having lunch la.. then i told them the xiaolongbao joke.. dunno if some of u have heard of it before.. i told them the first joke they were like the joke is damn cold lor.. then when i asked wat was fished out from the river that part they all burst out laughing lor.. sabrina was like.. i never heard sucha joke as lame as this.. haha..

oh.. saw adibah and her stead too!! ok.. thats all.. nutting much to say on adibah.. haha.. by 4 i already feel so tired from trying on too much clothes lor.. so i go home.. hehe.. then here i am.. yingqi is still shopping for clothes.. monday will be going out with yingqi to shop again but this time at orchard.. orchard more shopping centres.. haha.. then on tuesday its shopping again with lingyu and mengsan.. busy busy.. and i have yet to touch my homework!!! holidays are coming to an end already!!!

Friday, December 12, 2003 07:10 p.m.

oh man.. i am so bored now.. dun get me wrong la.. i have no wish to go out now.. just tt my final fantasy 7 disc got some problem.. then i letting it take a rest.. then now i got nutting to do.. sianz..

yesterday there was an oac comm meeting. i was almost late waiting for 105 lor.. then was walking to school then saw the bball people at the school gate waiting for the others to come.. all sweaty and huffing puffing lor.. ke lian.. and its like 8 in the morning? haha.. they got bball camp.. yupz.. saw mary waving to me from far.. but i couldnt make who that person was lah.. too far then my eye sight was pretty bad.. didn't say anything to them though.. so many bball people there then i also feel uneasy.. then my stomach already so sick from worrying that i am going to be late.. i wanted to run to the g block from the busstop.. then see all the bball people.. dun feel like running and paiseh-ing myself.. wat if i fall then roll down the slope? cannot cannot.. then connie said hi.. wanted to say back also lah.. then i saw miss tang.. see her bug-like eyes my mouth totally slammed shut man.. i was looking around for liling but i didnt see her around..

lucky i wasnt late.. was just on time.. they were arranging the tables and chairs for the meeting.. the meeting was pathetic!! only 6 people turned up lor.. the committee actually got 12 people.. but the other 6 went for the OCIP trip.. at first the meeting wasn't too bad.. cos mrs koh just quietly sit and do her work.. so we planned out the activities for next year and discussed stuff.. then suddenly around like 10 mrs koh started her interogation lor.. everybody was like so tense ok.. and she is so fierce somemore.. i shake my legs kena scolded by her 3 times.. so sad can.. haha.. can feel the tension floating around in the room.. by the time we finished discussing the activities it was already close to 1pm lor..

then this stupid lingyu suggested we plan for the OAC LTC 2004.. wat the!! then xinyi also agreed.. i was already very seh there ok.. then i didnt sleep throughout the night.. play games again la.. so tired already.. still want to discuss LTC.. but LTC is a major event for OAC lah.. tts why we must plan way ahead lor.. and the event is big lah.. must call up different places and stuff.. hmmm.. but luckily mrs koh said we plan for the LTC when the whole committee is back.. really lucky man..

mrs koh actually is very nice one.. she can be caring at times but when she is serious, no one can break her seriousness lor.. then we went out of school so scared to pass the Pe department cos we dun want to bum into her.. but bummed into shuwen instead..thk goodness.. she cut her hair!! haha.. maybe i never see her too long then i thot she looked fatter? hehe.. miss that loony..

anyhow.. we went to mos and eat.. forever eating mos when i am with the rest lah.. this time xinyi also came along with us.. then we went to town despite me feeling so drowsy. we caught a movie.. brother bear!! haha.. the movie is nice lah.. its touching in some ways.. the last part i teared ok! so touching can? but the cinema is full of kids lor.. and i dun really like kids..

god must be playing a trick on me and beside me is a little indian boy lor.. so irritating!! keep on stretching his hands then at one point he place his palm on my shoulder lor.. i thought its only cos he is stretching den accidentally hit my shoulder.. then 5secs.. 10secs.. 15secs.. the hand is still there!! i got really pissed then i swat his little hand off.. he didnt even so much look at me lor.. and i really do mean i swat it off ok.. i already feeling so crappy got this kind of people sit beside me.. sheesh..

the movie ended then i straight away went back lor.. couldnt stand it already.. my eyes needed toothpick to keep it open.. haha.. urgh.. supposed to go for dinner at sizzlers' with my mom.. but i sorta feel lazy so i shall just eat bread.. tml there is a meeting again.. and mrs koh is coming as well!!! wat the.. i hope all goes well tml..

Wednesday, December 10, 2003 08:41 p.m.

Peace is but a shadow of death,
Desesperate to forget its painful past...
Though we hope for promising years.
After shedding a thousand tears,
Yesterday's sorrow constantly nears.
And while the moon still shines blue,
By dawn, it will turn to scarlet hue.

Wednesday, December 10, 2003 06:09 p.m.

someone help me!! my friends are bugging me to go out again.. sheesh.. i really dun feel like going out man.. and they want to go clubbing tonight.. i already told them i dun wanna go out and they keep calling one by one.. screw them la..

went out yesterday.. went to town mop here and there and then went to andy's place.. he has a damn big house man.. with his own pool and a wine bar.. real neat.. those houses at the back of err.. i think its lucky plaza around there.. further deep la actually.. but he drives so he drove us there.. tam had to sit on me.. haha... cos there we too many people and it cant possibly be me sitting on her? haha.. andy loaned me berms lah.. then we sat by the pool with our legs dipped in the water and drank some stuff.. then we just talked lah.. then they were like asking me how the hell did they get to noe me la.. and i was like no idea?? haha..

all of them knew each other from school lah.. and i am like the most freaking extra there can.. i am the youngest since all of them are 19 or 20s... luckily there's this guys sister along who is 18.. ok lah.. close to my age mah.. andy even has a DJ room lor.. super cool can.. yesterday was in a way more fun than monday? monday real sucks i tell u.. half the time i was moody cos there really was nutting to do and everyone was like quiet and all!! i tok and they just go hmmm.. so i reached home at around 2+? andy sent us all home.. its good having a friend who can drive.. haha..

oops.. they just called me again.. managed to begged them to lemme off.. haha.. saying my mom's friends coming over and i just HAVE to help her.. haha.. oh well.. will probably be stuck at the PS playing ff7.. yes yes.. changed game lah.. after ff7 will most prolly play ff8.. actually, after ff9 ended i wanted to like study? unbelievable right? it doesn't have to be that unbelievable cos my resolution has failed me once again.. haha.. oh.. tml got OAC.. so its just right for me to not go clubbing today? haha.. kudos..

Tuesday, December 9, 2003 04:25 p.m.

All life bears death from birth.
Life fears death, but lives only to die.
It starts with anxiety.
Anxiety becomes fear.
Fear leads to anger...
anger leads to hate...
hate leads to suffering...
The only cure for this fear is total destruction.

Tuesday, December 9, 2003 02:54 p.m

I FINALLY FINISH PLAYING FF9!!! wah.. the ending is damn good lor.. at the end after i fought the final boss(he's a damn tough S.O.B) the whole thing ended in a sequence.. and everything was unfolded and a story was shown.. the story itself was like 30mins plus? i felt like i was watching a movie man.. damn nice and touching. so sweet the ending.. finished playing around 7+ this morning? thk goodness its only 7+ lor.. my eyes were already like wanting to close at that time.. initially i started playing at 12+.. then i was leveling up my characters.. from level 79 to 92 in 3 and a half hours.. it was so mundane and boring leveling up.. i wanted to level up till 99 but i was too bored so i continued with the storyline.. hehe.. ok fine.. none of u would prolly noe at i am toking bout cept for BX..

hmmm.. went out on sunday with my family.. ifah and farah wanted to come to my house but sadly i had to reject them.. haha.. we went to ikea to buy a bed for my brother.. my mom wanted to buy me a queen size bed but i didnt want lah.. my room already got so many things put a queen size bed i will feel suffocated.. i like a lot of space and now my room got bloody a lot of boxes filled with books man.. gonna buy a cupboard so i can placed all my novels.. i have tonnes trust me.. hopefully it'll be a built-in shelf lah.. so anyhow.. i wanted to go queensway and buy shoes.. but my mom felt lazy and tired so we didnt go there.. asked me ta go with my friends.. oh well.. then we headed to swensen's and had a big feast lah.. but i couldn't eat alot!! *sobs* wasted lah.. i ate half of the baked rice and took one mouth of food from everyone.. plus ice cream of cos.. go swensen's of cos must eat ice cream.. haa..

then my mom so nice buy me a ice cream log cake.. haha.. its kinda cheap u noe... only 40 bucks.. cheap for ice cream cake right!! hmmm.. was out yesterday but wont really elaborate on that.. wasn't a really err.. great day yesterday or so to say.. will be going out later around 6.. think i shall catch a nap first..

Friday, December 5, 2003 09:41 p.m.

5th december.. its my birthday today!! haha.. received a plentiful of birthday greetings today.. surprised there's some people that remembered.. jasmin mok, bird, adibah, wendy(though i think u found out from shuwen.. haha), connie, my dearest liling, and even mich.. haha.. of cos got msg from my former squeez gang lah.. if u guys dun remember i will personally slaughter u all ar!! haha..

went out to so called celebrate my birthday with the other squeez gang.. haha.. not really celebrate but go around shopping for jojo and shuwen's birthday present.. it was long overdue.. haha.. so poor thing susanne, glyn and joanne.. they had to fork out 60 bucks at one shot for me jojo and shuwen.. each person must pay 20 bucks for the others present lor.. come to think of it.. $20 is like alot hor? i think next year we will cut down to $10! haha.. so ke lian they all.. glyn so broke she never gimme the 20 bucks today.. pity u all.. sorry make u all so broke!! haha..

i realize today that susanne actually got a lot of savings too? she got more than shuwen now lor.. haha.. joanne also alot of savings.. only me jojo and glyn everytime at the less than a thousand sorta savings.. me and glyn the account everytime reduced to zero.. now my account got a few hundred thanks to the squeez gang for their 100 bucks contribution and my bro for his $50 combined with my hari raya money.. hehe.. i didn't really buy anything today cos there was nothing that i wanna get in town.. shirts i think i got too much already and everytime got new shirts cos my bro is sponsored my flesh imp.. so everytime he bring back new shirts then i can wear.. i think i will use the money i got to buy the nike air force shoes that i have been wanting to get for a bloody long time already.. i got an air force shoes at home which is my bros one lah.. but its super high cut lor.. so gross if i wear that to school.. haha..

will go queensway for the shoes one day.. jojo also didnt buy her present today.. cos she couldn't find a wallet that she like.. but shuwen bought a quiksilver wallet and a ripcurl water bottle for her brother.. wat the.. how can she use the money we gave her for her present to buy her brother the bday present!! haha.. but i dun mind lah.. i complain and nag but i really dun mind.. hehe.. oooo.. my 10 days later twin just msg me happy bday.. bet someone reminded her its my bday.. haha..

hmmm.. i think we all sorta like got older and grow out of birthdays and sort.. usually birthdays used to be damn impt to us.. but now we only give the money and let them buy themselves.. i think its better in a way.. cos sometimes we buy things for them then they dun like.. so better give money and buy something they like.. its not insincere.. its just.. i dunno what to say.. like poor glyn.. we dunno her so well last time den everytime her bday her present is damn disgusting lor.. i think she also very upset with the present.. but i think her present this year is nice!! haha..

tml got SATs.. but i havent done a single bloody thing for it and here i am still online updating the blog.. but i will go and prepare last min for it after this lah.. then after SATs got a concert at the esplanade in the evening.. my mom wanted to bring me out to dinner for my bday tml nite but the concert is in the way.. sheesh.. feel so bad.. then i said go on sunday instead lor.. then saturday night i got a chalet.. baba's chalet lah.. then she invited us to go lor.. then i thinking whether i should go anot lor.. haiz.. but if i dun go then i wont get to see my stoic president and my other super lame seniors lor.. DILEMMA!! but i think my mom more impt.. haiz.. i think i am going on and on.. am i boring u guys? haha..

oh.. yesterday supposed to go sentosa with mengsan and lingyu and this other friend lah.. then i woke up bloody late lor!! i woke up at 5!! wat the.. checked my hp then got msg at 3+ demanding me where i am lor.. wat the.. then i got ready and went to raffles city and met ms and ly.. then that friend disappeared le.. then we went to town and met brian goh, alson and bing xiang.. i drank coffee bean for free.. and the guys treat to swensens.. so nice of them.. but i didnt eat much lah.. so full lor!! drank big big mocha ice blend then eat old chang kee.. my stomach nowadays cannot take it man..

then i left town around 10+.. wanted to rush home and watch the last episode of my nezha show.. hahaha.. then they sang me a happy birthday eve song at swensen's lor.. so paiseh can.. but really appreciated it lah.. oh.. and thanks to the peeps who msged my tag board.. really happies u guys know too!! haha.. but i bet u all guessed it from my previous entry.. haha.. but thanks all the same..

Thursday, December 4, 2003 04:54 a.m.

urgh.. so damn irritated with final fantasy 9 now!! i doing some stupid side quest and i have to accumulate like 10000 points and i have yet to level up my characters to level 99!! sheesh.. supposed to be going to sentosa tml morning.. around 1030? but i havent even sleep yet so i most prolly wont go to sentosa.. i think i will just meet the guys in town.. go window shopping!! haha.. suddenly i think i am like damn loaded now.. saved ALOT of money though i go out quite often.. then my bro just gave me $50 as a bday gift.. wat a gift lor.. haha..

before he went to work he was like asking me what present i want lah.. so i was like giving him the cheeky grin and said i want a ps2.. initially he said ok.. then i think he checked out the price.. hehe.. then he just came home and he just threw the $50 to me.. haha.. he said he's broke.. but its ok lah.. i get money i am already very happy.. hmmm.. wonder what i will get from my mom.. but i really dun expect anything from her lah.. now as i get older birthdays seem a tad bit insignificant to me.. haha..

Wednesday, December 3, 2003 09:50 p.m.

had oac today.. wasn't that tough today lah.. haha.. last week everyone complained that they couldn't even walk down the stairs after PT and they reduced it this week.. really reduced.. only had to like do like 3 walls.. 3 monkey bar.. 3 rounds running.. 9 assisted pull-ups.. 9 sets of 20 secs leg raises.. 60 standard push ups.. 15 widespread push ups.. and 60 crunches.. and we did standing broad jumps acorss the whole basketball courts.. we look like idiots i swear.. miss tang was over with miss koh talking and she kept on looking at the guys doing.. then she laughed and said smth to mrs koh but mrs koh forever just give the tiny smile.. PT was sorta like boring without aileen? so used to having her lead us and such den missed seeing her face..

basically we kept on doing circuits lah huh.. its damn irritating.. i dunno why.. they keep on working on the arms.. only the arms.. so by the time PT ends its always the hands that are aching.. i dunno.. but i still prefer running and doing stuff together.. i miss running 10 to 15 rounds with everyone moaning and groaning and complaining but still keeping in steps.. hah.. watever.. i think they are stepping up on the circuits..

oh well.. then we saw her outside of school at the bus stop.. she looked so fresh then the rest of us look so haggard.. haha.. she was meeting nigel and i think she had to wait like forever.. so long lor guys get ready.. i dunno what the hell they busy themselves with.. then we went mos and eat. i think i cant eat much nowadays.. dunno.. 2pm seems hardly the time for me to eat.. only eat a yakiniku and i was already damn full.. went home and played ff9(yes yes.. i have a boring life) then slept from 6 till around 9.55?

this morning i had a real stupid dream ok.. real stupid to the point that i woke up and started laughing.. serious.. ok i dreamt that me shuwen joanne and cheryl were in one car.. cheryl was the driver den from left to right at the back seat was shuwen me den joanne so i was the center lah.. i think cheryl was bringing us to a chalet or we going for a trip? not sure.. then joanne was like asking if we got bring shampoo.. then i said i didnt bring any toiletries cos i noe they would bring.. then shuwen said she brought then she took out this really damn huge bottle of dettol bath cream.. the one where u just need to hit the top and things will come out.. u get me? okok.. watever.. then joanne the eyes were damn huge like saucers lor.. haha.. then she was like.. u bring sooo big for wat? then shuwen was like i squeezed out two bottles of pantene into this bigger one lor.. haha.. even in dreams shuwen seem so idiotic.. haha..

ok.. so our topic in the car suddenly shifted to body srubbing.. i said i dun usually scrub my body.. then joanne took out this scrub for dish washing.. the one with the yellow sponge and rough green bits? and she said she used that to scrub her body! -_-;;; it was damn hilarious lah trust me.. then shuwen reached out over me and touched joanne's arms and said its very smooth.. the irony.. then she started digging into her bag and took out a super long scrub.. those type that u use to wash the toilet bowl.. yup.. and she said she used those.. then after that my alarm went off.. its really damn funny lah huh.. i was laughing away in the shower ok.. cheryl did talk.. but i couldn't remember her exact words.. haha.. okok.. maybe its not funny to u all.. just sharing my stupid dream.. haha.. i am gonna watch tv now. tata..

Monday, December 1, 2003 Monday, December 1, 2003

added a new song to the blog.. hmmm.. not sure if all of u can actually listen to the song without it being jerky.. i mean on my computer its perfectly smooth running.. one of my other friends too.. well.. hope u guys get to hear the song.. cos its real nice.. puddle of mudd with blurry..

Saturday, November 29, 2003 08:20 p.m.

i took a real stupid quiz.. and here are the results..

HASH(0x86cfc2c)
The Hero Without A Past - Must have gorgeous hair, blue or green eyes (a
mixture is also acceptable), and be proficient
in the use of bladed weapons. Instant and
unconditional love for the Lovely Heroine a
necessity. Must also have at least two of the
following: --At least 5 years missing from memory --A dysfunctional relationship with 1 or more
Reluctantly Protective Father Figures --A distinct aversion to helping others (must be
willing to go through attitude adjustment) Examples: Cloud Strife, Squall Leonhart, Zidane
Tribal, Tidus

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i dunno why i bother putting in the results actually, but i just wanted a pic of that beautiful hunk in my blog. lol.. oh.. in case any of u dunno, the current pic in my blog is vivi from final fantasy 9 ya.. haha..

went out yet again today.. tired.. met shuwen at 140? went to eat at bishan LJS.. finally i see that place.. haha.. didn't know it existed.. and who did we see? WENQIANG!! i dunno why but everytime i am at bishan with shuwen i am sure to bump into him lor.. so coincidental.. and both of them acted so stupidly in front of one another.. haha..

then fats messaged ask whether wanna go out.. so i said we are already out and asked her to join us.. in the end she said she didn't want to.. wat the!! she asked us out and then she rejected us.. she's forever doing that.. then the both of us headed to causeway point cause shuwen wanted to work at mos again.. wanna earn some pocket money according to her.. some of our old colleagues are still working there.. but none that i like that much lah. for starters there's peiling.. i really hate that girl ok.. i still remember she everytime blabber on me and joanne for drinking the iced coffee to the manager.. wat a tale-carrier..

and then there's this suat ling or watever she's called lor.. knew her back in parco mos burger.. she's such a prick lor.. scold here and there.. scold until all her teeth are blackened!! damn gross lor her teeth.. like she didn't brush them or something? okok.. i shan't go into the teeth.. so shuwen asked for job vacancy and she said if shuwen can work next year she'll take her in.. oh yah.. i failed to mention that she's the manager noW~!! *bleaugh* its amazing wat 2 years can make u become.. so continuing.. shuwen was pondering and suat ling said.. u think about it.. maybe u can't cope with your studies.. i dunno if i am prejudiced against her lah hur.. but i realli dun like the cant cope with ur studies line.. *sheesh* its a good think shuwen didn't accept the job.. yikes..

we tried at so many other places? pasta mania.. cold storage.. then we went to town and on the train to town joanne called me.. said she's bored.. then i asked her come out and she was like OK! meet u guys at yck mrt.. so fast.. haha.. she wore some kinda cotton sweater and shuwen kept saying its like an ahma's sweater.. hehe.. searched for shuwen the job at this jap restaurant.. 77-street.. flash and splash.. no vacancy... we just stoned around then saw susanne and jasmine.. tok with them a while then headed home.. basically thats it.. a rather boring day today.. haha..

thinking abt whether i should sacrifice my GODS OF HONOUR show to go for chalet from the 1st to 3rd december? dilemma dilemma.. most prob i am only going for 1 day ya.. no stay overs either.. see how.. hmmm.. feel like playing ff9 now.. but feeling kinda lazy to get my stupid bum off the chair.. i think i'll just sleep on the keyboard..

Friday, November 28, 2003 02:22 p.m.

urgh.. got a damn bad sore throat and bad nose-stuck or watever u call it right now man.. must be cos ate too much of those tarts and little goodies.. didn't eat during hari raya at all.. instead i stuffed myself with pineapple tarts.. and those are damn buttery.. serve me right for getting a sorethroat right now. sheesh..

will be going out later. glad i didn't make plans for today or have any for that matter... will be meeting up with old old friends. been wanting to see them for quite a while. looking forward to it. =)

well.. my brother somehow failed in his year end project and may have to retain a semester. my mom's not too happy about it of cos.. she has this perception that onli those who succeed in everything will succeed in life. i think it is a mistake to suppose that men succeed through success, they much oftener succeed through failures. Precept, study, advice, and example could never have taught them so well as failure has done.

been playing ff9 consistently everyday.. already clocked 26hours? but at the point in the game where i am at, i should already be clocking 45hrs.. i need to level up my characters.. wat a bother.

Friday, November 28, 2003 01:06 a.m.

the tears have finally fallen...

Tuesday, November 25, 2003 01:39 p.m.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

=) hehe.. today is hari raya!! yes.. that means its a money collecting day.. hehe.. i always look forward to this day cos i am a money minded person.. haha.. my world revolves around cash, cash and more cash.. ok lah.. i think i am sprouting rubbish.. i dunno what to do online anyway!! so i just decided to blog.. hn.. none of my relatives are at my place, instead all my mom's chinese friends are here. no angpow yet!! =(

but there is ALOT of food.. and i do mean alot when i say alot.. but i shan't eat at home. later going jalan jalan then eat outside.. hehe.. i am seriously bored man.. i want to play final fantasy 9!! but my mom's friends are dammit hogging the tv. i really should bug my mom to get me a second gift for my bday.. haha.. get a cheap tv put in my room so i can play the PS anytime i want.

oh.. ff9 is really great man..!! its damn nice.. but so far, i haven't been so deep into the game that i cant really compare whether ff8 or ff9 haas a better story line.. but i noe that ff7 has a damn good storyline.. a pity i didn't get to complete it.. will do so after ff9 then it'll be back to ff2. haha.. okok.. i think i am boring u guys with all this final fantasy stuff. unless u actually play the game, no one can really understand the wonders that the game brings.. haha.. i am crapping again.. oooh.. my aunties have come.. off i will to see them.. tata!!

Saturday, November 22, 2003 10:16 p.m.

hey.. anyone noes how to stop the song from keep on repeating itself?

Saturday, November 22, 2003 02:16 p.m.

just got back from clubbing since last night.. not really club till now lah obviously, went to madmonks and danced the night away till like 230? then we went to newton and ate and ate and ate.. then headed to joanne's place and slept overnight there.. we actually were talking. talking alot of rubbish then joanne slept first and i think i was the next to sleep. we all smelt awful man.. monks itself smell of all the cigarettes.. everyone was smoking and dancing. at least its onl cigarette smell, i wouldn't be able to tahan the smell if twas cigarette+alcohol.

can say clubbing was quite fun? everyone was reluctant to dance at first.. first time its likdat i guess.. then got dragged to the dance floor by joanne and the music was damn loud.. then our bodies start moving on its own lor.. at first its slow swaying.. then started getting faster and in tune to the beat.. i must say that connie danced pretty nice.. so many many bungs at monks man.. shuwen kept saying she never see such a large scale amount of bungs.. kin sin was there too.. but he is abit out of place lah.. and a lot of bungs stared at him lor.. i think perhaps they were trying to figure out whether he is one of them.. but he is awfully tall.. stands out among the rest lah..

oh just now around 11am connie left joanne's place cos she need to go with her sis and parents to take her sister's PSLE results.. her sister very smart lei.. she got 243 or 247.. cant remember properly.. yupz.. we wake up all suddenly search for food man.. ransacked joanne's fridge and ate all her keropok.. poor fats.. everytime we come her house her food surely gone one.. haha..

next club: SOS! nice meh? but joanne wanna try to go there..

Thursday, November 20, 2003 07:10 p.m.

yay!! finally completed final fantasy 1!! now.. on to final fantasy 9!! played 2 hours of ff9 so far.. the graphics is damn good.. the best so far for ff-ps.. =)

Thursday, November 20, 2003 12:57 p.m.

oh yah.. i was just wondering.. that time when i was having trouble with archiving my blog, there was tis person SELENA who messaged on my tag board and sorta helped me with my blog.. just wondering who that person is? i dont noe any SELENA in my life man.. haha.. come out come out wherever u are.. hehe.

Thursday, November 20, 2003 12:15 p.m.

*yawns* just woke up.. so sleepy.. today actually got physics and chem lecture in the morning, but since i've been going out this whole week, i figure i'd better stay home today.. haha.. sometimes just feel like staying home and gor.. so many things for me to do dunno where to start also.. yesterday wednesday there was physics lecture lah.. then on tuesday i kept bugging shuwen to go for it lor..

then i yesterday suddenly didnt feel like going.. not cos i want to sleep or wat.. just didnt feel like going lor.. i woke up at 8 then i played final fantasy lor.. then so engrossed in the game.. messaged wenwen i dun wanna go at 935am lei.. then she never reply.. messaged her 3 times lor.. then i called her.. called her 2 times.. also never pick up.. i figured she might be sleeping so i dun care lor.. then sekali at 11 she called me and asked me where am i lor.. she never bring her handphone lor.. of all times.. wat the.. then i this type of people soooo indecisive then i suddenly told her i will be down in 15 mins time.. i supposed to meet her at bishan interchange first mah..

and i think i got ready as fast as lightning wor!! really lei.. i managed to reach bishan in 15 mins time.. i bathed before that already then my clothes a bit got ironed abit not ironed.. haha.. then met her lor.. we sit and wait for the bus to come.. then suddenly dunno why we not going for the lecture le.. then we went to cold storage yishun to buy sliced turkey cos my mom wants it.. it taste horrible i tell u!! cold turkey sucks like crazy.. taste so dry just like tuna.. i prefer turkey when it's hot.. but my mom likes it.. oh well.. then went to shuwen's house to get her hp.. saw her new computer in her room.. damn nice.. the cpu looks just like the hewlett packard cpu that i had my eyes on.. just that her cpu got no brand.. haha.. but its real nice!! and its pentium 4 somemore.. but the system spoiler lah.. of all windows hers is windows 98.. i thot its windows xp or something.. haha.. then off we went next to my house.. -_-;;; cos need to take extra clothes cos need to change or else smelly wor.. playing ball mah.. then go and gor a while at my house use net then conz message.. said she and liling were at j8 so we met them there lah.. then together we go back to school play ball lor..

reached school roughly around 150? changed and everything then played ball from then till 5+ close to six lor.. tired k!! then somemore me and shuwen never eat anything before playing except for a few pieces of miserable and yucky tasting sushi den i was soo hungry lor.. oh!! i learnt how to do a layup!! very fun to do... but then the movement is still not smooth lah.. but i can do it quite good mah.. just that the ball will not go in the net lah.. hehe.. must master it!! then next time when OAC play games then they play bball can show off to them.. wahahaa.. but OAC prefer contact rugby lei.. hehe..

yaya.. then eat eat talk talk then went home and reached around 930.. told my mom shuwen has a new computer and its sooo cheap.. haha... my mom thot i was hinting but i wasnt.. i was just telling her.. i told her it looks like a hp comp with all the LCD monitor and all.. then she said though its cheap she'd rather she buy for me a hp computer.. said its more reliable? wah.. then she suddenly pondered then she said "Wait till my year end bonus, then i can get u your computer." haha.. my mom is sooo nice!! but.. i told her no need lah.. said that right now i dun really need another computer lor.. really will think it'll affect my studies if i have it in my room.. haha.. but i made my mom promise me to buy me a comp if i do get to enter university.. haha.. yaya.. then watched my nezha show lah.. very nice noe!! those who got cables should watch channel 55 everyweekday at 10.30pm!!

oh.. played final fantasy throughout the night till 4+ lor.. going to complete le!! happy man.. but this last stage of the final fantasy origins is quite tough ya.. oh.. fats called me at 11 exactly this morning.. ask me to go her house and be her photographer.. wat the!! haha.. she needs to take pictures of short hair people for her course work for next year i think.. then she asked wenwen, mich, conz, and cheryl to take picture.. then i photographer!!! haha.. but i was sleeping when she called.. i answered then i already so blur.. then i said i dun intend to step out of my house today.. haha.. went back to sleep then here i am lor.. hmmm..

jojo: hehe.. our shopping for your birthday present abit not fruitful right!! next time must meet earlier.. then u also must noe where u wanna go mah!! or else we are like wandering spirits lor.. hehe.. u spent $40 le ar.. still got $60 to spend.. better think of how u can spend it quick lor!! after ur present must buy wenwen's present.. haha.. dun want to let u all celebrate bday with me.. haha.. joking lah.. since u all never have a proper celebration can go celebrate with me too!! wahhaa..

Wednesday, November 19, 2003 01:24 a.m.

wooo.. wat a tiring day today.. went to school late morning.. went for the chemistry lecture.. it was pretty boring.. stoned here and there but i did listen at one point or another.. oh.. the lecturer is my tutor mr ong.. shuwen kept on saying he looks like a banana.. haha.. then i made up the story that he is josephine's cousin cos her surname is oso ong mah.. then she stupid stupid believe me lor.. i said jojo told me that she has a cousin teaching at NYJC den since that banana's surname is Ong it might well be him.. she believed till i started laughing like mad.. haa.. she even said that the banana looked like josephine.. wat the.. it doesnt sound funny here but it was really funny then..

then after the lect we walked to the bus stop cos we going home to change to meet jojo and glyn.. then shuwen made a remark, "Your tag-board is on jojo's blog." i simple do not noe why the hell we found it so funny cos we ended up laughing all the way to the bus stop.. it was just so crazy lor.. i think i am getting loony these days..

ok.. supposed to meet shuwen at braddell at 345 at braddell mrt.. but she said she was gonna be late and told me to go ahead and meet them first.. but i was too engrossed being online that i didnt see the time.. i was late too lor.. jojo was late.. so i met her on the train.. tok tok to her then suddenly shuwen pop out from nowhere.. turns out she was on the same train lor.. haha.. all of us late only glyn was earli lor.. first time ar glynis.. then at orchard mrt we saw joel mos burger lei!!! joanne's old old flame when we were working at mos.. he's still as short as ever then i dunno why i just walked past him.. totally ignored him lor.. haha.. shuwen was the one who said hi to him.. hmmm.. but last time in mos burger hor.. i quite close to him lah.. not really close but we messaged everyday.. haha.. COS.. he dunno how to woo joanne.. wat the hell.. that guy is damn childlike lor.. but he grow bigger.. more muscular.. and he still is damn good looking.. small slit-like eyes..

then the four of us headed to yoshinoya at takashimaya to eat lunch cum dinner lah.. four thirty already mah!! so hungry lei.. i practically gobbled down my food lor.. then i so hungry and to make matters worst glynis kept on telling lame jokes lor!!! haha.. she ar.. changed a lot since sec sch days lor.. getting lamer and lamer.. kept on making me laugh then i cannot taste my food properly lor.. haha.. she didnt want to drink the miso soup.. so she gave it to me.. then i full already mah.. so gave it to wenwen.. then dunno why the lid of the bowl is stuck lor.. cannot open.. then we all take turns to try to open it.. but to no avail.. shuwen must be damn hungry or either that she is simply greedy.. tried to force the lid open.. in the end the lid did gave way.. and shuwen ended up with half of the bowls' content on her shrit and boardshorts.. so embarrassing lor.. but instead of feeling poor thing for her the three of us kept on guffawing lor.. laughed so much no wonder we all so tired.. hehe..

met my dear fats at heeren later after we ate.. she went for a photo shoot for teens mag lei!! she gonna appear in the magazine.. hehehe.. so proud of my dear fats.. gonna be a model le!! hahaha.. ok lah.. i exaggerating.. yupz.. she went for the photo shoot with cheryl.. none of us could come with her so cheryl accompanied her so she no need mac go herself mah.. but she looks pretty nice today.. hehe.. we took lots and lots of neoprints again.. forever lor.. then walk here walk there.. we never walk very long lor.. but dunno why my legs so tired.. then we went to coffeebean sit sit.. then we took a lot of photos with joannes cam lei!! then jojo got long hair mah.. then we made her cover her whole face with her hair lei.. then she look like sadako!! terrifying man!! show u guys the pic..

aiyo.. i really get a fright looking at the pic now noe.. its really scary dun u think so!! nevermind.. i wun look at the photo when i am alone one.. haha.. ya.. so we went home lah.. tired already mah.. thot can use the computer then my brother using so i watching hongkong shows till now lor.. hehe.. my brother sit on the living room chair then suddenly he dozed off.. so i take the opportunity to use the compie awhile.. haha.. tomolo got physics lect.. then playing ball with the bballers i guess.. better go and zzz now.. tata..

Monday, November 17, 2003 03:54 a.m.

*phew* finally finished with my new layout.. its not really that great but i wanna adopt something simple yet classic.. haha.. i noe its simple but i dunno about the classic part.. oh.. i went to this website.. typed in my name and they gave me a suitable DJ name for my real name.. haha.. pretty funny..

nina spins tunes as
DJ Uptight Fluff
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oh.. tomorrow supposed to meet shuwen at 115 at khatib to go and buy some stuff at cold storage.. its i ask her to go wan.. but i am feeling kinda lazy right now.. haha.. maybe will go on tuesday after school instead.. will see how first tomolo ba.. need my sleep now.. ZZzzzZZ

Sunday, November 16, 2003 05:59 p.m.

tHe feElinG of loVe sTarTs fRom thE eyE
anD thE feElinG of LikE sTarTs from thE eAr
sO if yOu sTop likInG a pErsOn yOu uSed to LikE
aLL yOu nEEd to dO is COvER youR eArS
buT if yOu trY to COver yOur eYes
lOve turnS intO a drOp of tEars anD remainS in yOur heArt forEver aftER

Sunday, November 16, 2003 04:09 p.m.

woohoo.. my compie's finally back and the explorer is finally usable.. been having withdrawal syptoms for the past few days man.. really missed seeing the computer.. *laughs* oh.. but that repair man formatted my computer and everything is gonE!! everything i tell ya!! all the 2000++ songs that i have.. *sad* but its ok.. at least now my comp does not crash or wat sorts.. and its faster too!! hehe..

anyway.. yesterday was quite a fun day.. i slept till like 2++.. met up with suhaida and the girls together with their boyfriends at 5.30pm to have dinner at china square.. the food sucks i tell u.. but i haven't seen them for like ages so its was nice to talk and laugh about the old times.. we kept laughing and laughing over dunno what thing.. haha.. sat at china square till like 8? then we headed to boat quay.. it was soo pack there lor.. i was terribly tempted to go to madmonks to have a drink but in the end we all settled for coffeebean nearest to madmonks.. yep.. and wat else did we do? talked of cos.. drank coffee and i shared *ahem* with hafizil.. haha..

i wanted to go town and meet atifah and farah they all to go watch the freestyler show at the youth park but the rest didn't want to go.. guess the couples all wanted to spend quality time by themselves.. boring.. so i ended up making my way home.. reached home around 1030? then at around 1050 old old friends called and asked me whether i wanna go clubbing in town.. wat the.. i just came back from boat quay and asked me go clubbing!! they should have all called earlier so we could go to mad monks or something.. shtooopid! i wanted to go actually.. but wat bars will they go to in orchard lor!!! i am not even 17 yet dunno i can enter anot.. and all of them are like in their 20s and such.. so in the end i didn't go.. then so sweet of them come my house and bought drinks for me.. haha.. they tried to get drunk but.. its not easy to get drunk with those 10% kinda drinks ya noe.. i drank jackdaniels with cola.. my all time favourite!! haha.. i got just a little bit tipsy but not enuf that i start hugging someone or start puking in the toilet and sleep there.. by 5 all of them conk out at my living room.. leaving me with my bro.. just talking to him about this course which he attended.. expensive u noe! it cost 1200 bucks..

he questioned me on a lot of things and i am left baffled by the questions.. haha.. they left at around 630.. i watched man in manhattan but i realised i only have the 1st disc.. bummer.. after that sleep lah of cos.. tired man.. dreamt of dunno what rubbish.. haha..i think i have violent tendencies u noe.. i keep on dreaming that i am angry and in a state of anger i bash that person up.. haha.. but the scene is always different but there is this anger u noe.. hmmm.. so i slept till 2++ then went down to get the internet explorer disc from shuwen.. not that it was of any help but i really appreciated it.. simple favours really makes me happy.. =)

before i leave.. those of you who still download music should download this korean song.. its called sweet dreams by SENS.. if i am not mistaken lah.. its nice!! hehe.. okok.. i'll be off.. but before that i'll leave you with a thought..

RealitY haS spokEn
DreamS aRe bROken
buT onE wiSh caN coMe tRue
if yOu noE thAt i loVe you

pEoplE teLL mE to fOlloW my hEart..
buT whEn my hEartS brOken inTo piEceS
whIch onEs do I foLLoW?

Monday, November 10, 2003 12:41 a.m.

ok.. //cracks knuckles// i am gonna type a super long entry to fill up all the empty spaces in my entry box.. grrr.. i hate the archiving shit..

ok.. anyway.. i went to bugis today.. with my mom and my eldest bro.. was really getting bored walking here and there shopping for none of my clothes and then guess who i bumped into? none other than my dearest fats and kin sin.. wat the.. fats didnt even see me when we walked pass each other.. i grabbed her and she kinda got a shock.. haha.. during the time i was at bugis i saw her only twice.. the second time i saw her she didnt look at me at all again.. so when i passed by her i was like "Why u always ignore me.." but she didnt even hear me and continued walking pass me.. wat the! i grabbed her a second time and she jumped on me a second time.. haha..

sometimes i dunno wat to say abt my